Lonely lol

Today was one of my colleague’s birthday. Her boyfriend sent a bouquet of roses to the office together with a birthday card. What a surprised =) I really envy her for having such a sweet and caring boyfriend! Looking back at myself, I felt a sudden of loneliness, for so many years, I never received flowers before! At times, I would just imagine what is it like receiving flowers and presents from my loved one, but I just felt that this seems quite hard to achieve and I start to get worried and even scared. What I am looking for, is just someone who love me, care for me, be beside me when I feel happy, sad, stress… Is that so difficult? I don’t know …