It's me.....

It's been so long since I last came here, I guess is because I am lazy. Nevertheless, apart from hiding it deep inside my heart, another best way will be to express it out, especially when I could find no one to talk to. Words will be the one that can help. July and August had been the worst month I had ever gone through. In terms of everything, work, relationship, all screwed up. July supposedly be my favourite month, a month where I would look forward to celebrate, nevertheless, July 2012 was the worst of all. Besides my family, I never celebrate a single birthday. I don't even have the mood for it. I guess its because at that moment, the one that I hope to celebrate with will never materialise. Whatever is it, September is round the corner, and its a new month. Jolene will be better, and better. She will do her best, be her best.

Shit

F*** I could not stand it, otherwise, I would not scold such a word

Shit!! WHy there is such irresponsible guy working with me

I am the one who close file, waiting for his working paper, chasing him a long time, what he gave me?? Incomplete working paper...

I hate him.

I really want to kill him

I wan to kill him

Damn it

Damn it! Why there is such irresponsible person. I hate him. What the hell? ALready chase him for the working papers for so many days, but till now still not yet give me a single paper. Damn it, is he still so small till I need to keep chasing him for his work. Can't he use hiss brain and think, why have such people working in this office. SHit!!

小事一幢

不知道为什么,今天傍晚发生的一件小事,却一直都在我的脑海里,而我的心情也一直被影响

今天我去买东西,刚好是一个外劳来招待我,他的服务态度不错,甚至比一些华人小贩来的好

当他找钱给我时,他却找多了几角钱给我,当时他的supervisor刚好看到,还用了严厉的眼神盯着他,暗示他为什么找错钱,之后我就把多的钱给回他.

当时我真得觉得那个外劳很惨,那个supervisor 盯着他,那个外劳肯定会中骂的.

那时,我看到那个外劳也不知道要怎样解释给supervisor听.可能自己也做工了,很明白被supervisor责问的感受. 不知道为什么,我真的很替那个外劳感到很惨,我很不想看到他被人骂!

现在回想起来,我会怪自己,怪自己为什么当时不要开口,跟那supervisor说,叫他不要责怪那个外劳,因为那个外劳也是一时的疏忽罢了!

我真得真的很希望那个外劳不会给人罚,希望它能够在这里赚多多钱,回家乡就可以享受了!

New determination

I am determined.
From now onwards, no more biscuits.
I am going to stop eating biscuits!!
I am determined and I will continue my determination =)
That's for sure.

Filing...

Woooh! Today went for filing! It could be good and bad... Good - haha! no need to stay in the office, can talk to friends as loud as I can, can go for lunch for a longer time, can claim lunch fees...BUT, the filing room is really dusty, dirty and hot. I was sweating and sticky, oh no, can't wait to go home and bath!

But, I know...as a junior, we will have to do all types of jobs...that is life !

End of September Beginning of October

September is coming to an end, and October is round the corner!

I am going to lad a new lifestyle, in order to achieve all my aims, I know, with my full determination, I know I can make it.

I want to lose weight, I am actually quite 'zi bei', especially when looking at others. I really feel sad and angry of myself! This is really the top of my list.

Next, I will not think so much, whether I am being valued by the company or not, I don't care! Now, I will jus 'an fen shou ji', do whatever I am supposed to do, learn whatever I could learn and off I go. I don't want to compare myself with others. I will not do so just to make myself feel sad. Nevertheless, this will not be my company that I am going to stay in, after a few months, off I go.